A Happy and Sad Anniversary

The tears still came first, when I awoke this morning. I am hopeful that one year that will change. But, for now, today, on the second anniversary of my Mom's passing, and my 34th Wedding anniversary the sadness has come first. I think about her, and I miss her everyday. I have such a strong memory of this day, two years ago, when my sisters and I went to the nursing home that morning to see my Mom. She was barely hanging on, and I passionately whispered pleading in her ear to please hang on for just one more day. This was a selfish plea to not only get past this date, but a hope that more time would give her a change to get stronger and survive for us. A plea from a desperately scared daughter to her dying Mom. It was only a matter of hours before she passed. I am not sure when, if ever, it will get easier to separate the sad feelings of this day with the extremely happy ones. Only time will tell.

My husband and I both have mixed feelings on this day, because I was not the only one that lost someone that she loved, he lost her too. He had loved her as his Mother in-law for 32 years and he also misses her.  I am truly blessed to be able to be comforted by the love of my life, someone who also feels that loss. My Mom and Dad were both such great supporters of our love and marriage. They knew that our marriage was happy and strong, and they had faith that it would endure. I pray that our bond will last beyond the years that my parents were blessed to be together, and I and grateful that they were such great role models for a lasting love and marriage.  

Happy Anniversary to my wonderful husband. I love you always and forever!